a biddy dummy dum dum doo

At a time when i was down and out and broken beyound expression i found a friend. A friend with four legs and a tail. I had now lost 4 babies and lost count of the amount of let downs and fails i had went through the drugs were no longer working no matter how much i used or how hard i fought to numb to the pain. I couldnt even succeed at killng myself i felt like a true screw up and i just wanted to die. I had a 3 year old red bully named swisher who i had got when her was only 5 weeks old he saved my life and was still at that present moment was the only reason i had to hold on. But like the drugs swishers love and comfort could only numb so much i was i guess becoming amune to both. I was was only line one day and for some reason that i still cant pin point i went on craigslist i looked at the free things i looked at the cars and labtops i looked through the gigs and the housing lists and last i looked at the pet secion. It wasnt untill i got to page 7 that i saw an ad for a lab mix puupy. At the time i wasnt really counting on hearing back from the peope who posted the ad but still i sent an email. To my suprize i got an email reply about 3 days later and we set up a time to meet . my boyfriend wasnt a really animal lover and if he was it would be a cat before it would ever be a dog. So i thought it best to not say anything out of fear of him shuting down the whole puppy paprade so i suggested that we talk swisher for a walk even thought it was raining i stated “he still needs his walks” and so we set out and i gently guided us twords the neigborhood middle school swisher was a really good dog and didnt do anything ever to be deamed anything but. As always he sniffed and did his bussnies in a timely manner but i needed more time the lady had not yet shown up and i was not about to miss out on a puppy and i really was not about to come to come clean before i really really had to. So i pulled the whole “i need a break” we sat down at the bus stop just outside the schools parking lot and with just my luck it started to rain a bit confussed and in attempt to stay dry my boyfriend suggesed that we return home they still hadnt shown but just then i got a texted message from her saying they were close “ just a few more mins babe “ it was a sat so when a suv pulled into the parking lot i knew that it had to be them i shot up and while proceeding to walk to the car i said “ oh by the way you got me a puppy THANKS BABE”

Too confussed to arguee he stayed holding swisher and i went to collect the new member of my family. The lady got out said she was sorry for the delay and went to the back door she opened it and out poped this long ears chocolate lab pup. He was the 2nd most beautiful thing i ever saw and i knew right at that 1st meeting that i was ment to be his momma. Seeing how happy it made me my boyfriend didnt protest and that shock me but i was beyound greatful. I named him bagherra and we grew closer and closer everyday it had only been a short while since i had lost that last baby but having badoo really aided my pain and gave me reason to get up everyday. He had been put out for adoption beacuse he was TOO MUCH for them to handle and i knew how it felt to be given on so we connected on every leavel and deeply. Bagherra saved and he kept saving me every day he was motivation my support my comfort my rock my best friens my baby and gift from god . he sadly passed away in 2018 just after turning 3 he was hit by a car and till this day i have a hole in my heart. I miss him beyound words and i think about him every day i say good morning when i wake up and good night when i go to sleep. He saved my life as i saved his and i will always carry him in my heart spirit and soul.

Rest in peace bagherra aka badoo i love and miss you so much

Thank you for all the blessings you were showered me and my life with

i love you bagheera and you are always in my heart

i miss you so much everyday

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