today i watched a movie in real life i saw him today and i saw the true him come out no matter how much i read hear or learn none of it any of it could or did perpare me for the shit that went down today its so sad to see the man i love more then life itself be so empty and cold so lifeless so distant when i look in his eyes there is nothing his eyes are so empty and cold i dont know how it happened or even exactly when it happened but i lost him for good and every passing second it hits me harder and harder half of me wants to go back in time but the other half is happy with the way things are