am i crazy? i mean like really really the crazy one? is this my fault karma? was it me that fucked everything up? my heart is scared that these will be anwsered with a yes im scared because a part of me thinks it is very likley . i know that im not perfect and pat is not all that bad it wasnt just one of us it was both we both hurt one another and we both made mistakes and i know that and for that i am sorry i am sorry to have placed extra burdens on your sholders and i am sorry for showing how thankful i am for all you have given and done for helping me and being there for me i fucked up and i am so sorry i am sorry for acting like a child for the melt downs and the chaos and drama im sorry for the attitude im sorry for the lack of trust i am sorry for my insecreites and im sorry for the disrespect i am so sorry for not showing you how much i love you